June 20, 2007
Dear self part 2 (part 1)
- She is very small now, 5 months and smiles and grabs her hands like she is playing or praying and sometimes just stops and stares at them seriously now, then looks up and studies your smile for about 5 beats then returns it and then turns away grinning, shy, beautiful
- Work is work and you work too much. Attempts to cut down on it have met with some success, and you are slowly getting your feet underneath you as some sort of PM while building out some technical skillsets as well.
- Your commute is not that busy anymore, and just not busy enough to annoy you that you can't ride your bike. You ride a lot now, and just finished your first organized ride (3 days of brag in which you did 45/102/47 and did very well; first century and kept up with some big boys on the other days for 30 miles and then a 10 mile 18-21 mph sprint that suprised even you)
- You are wondering - around books, around faith, around what to do with spare time, around getting healthy, around your career, around money management, whatever. Lots of learning going on.
- Your parents are suddenly aging fast. Your mom had knee surgery that put her away from the caretaker role for your dad and you finally realized what the next few years might be like and don't even know what to say about it; you can't even think without getting angry and sad and lashing out at someone; you say extreme things - verbalize the end a lot and it bothers B.
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