June 20, 2007

I am in at work early - the morning shift. Which I created. To provide lots of support for our clients in different time zones. To make sure that blah, bluh, blih.

I got in a full hour earlier than the required 7am - I have no idea why (I think I suprised my alarm clock and the girls), and have spent the time so far trying to get back my mojo after a too good vacation at the end of which I realized that for the first time in years - the first time since I took my current job - that I was dreading going back.

It is very hard for me to recover from this realization; it always has been. I give up easily in the face of constant reputation-harming failure. Personal failures of certain types don't bother me, but a demotion, a trailing project, constant lack of progress that is visible, all get me in a internet-browsing-when-I-should-be-working frenzy that can last for hours, days, or sometimes until the next weekend bookend to an unproductive blitz.

And so it goes; off to try to get something going.

June 20, 2007 11:57 AM