February 14, 2007
We have encountered a few (in hindsight small) obstacles in our quest to build our own small family and I have found that waiting for three years, Sarah experiencing a rough delivery and then being very ill, and our long ten-day waiting period has given me a perspective that I feel that I have to share.
We don’t deserve such things as miraculous as children and loved ones, but all in our rational minds forces us to believe that we deserve things because we work hard for them – that justice and the law of physics, evolution, Brownian motion and such are what rules the world. I’d like to encourage a moment of reflection on the fact that you and I are stupid little selfish jerks who don’t deserve things like warm coffee in the winter, scrambled eggs with cheese, foot massages, and sleeping in on Saturday. If you reflect on this long enough you will find on the other side a God who loves you more than you know and has answers to this and the harder more dark questions of why nobody gets what they deserve in either direction.