November 25, 2002

Connection

I do not want the loneliness to be institutional, no more highways cutting large polygons of nothing. I do not want small islands semi-connected - houses filled with television-watching children learning about the world through red, green, and blue. I do not want separate buildings as evolutionary forks, across the street as the other side of a great canyon, people only seeing strangers in restaurants during special occasions, amazed at how they are the same as you.

I do not want one way streets of ideas all leading in. I do not want a collection of beliefs - political, social, geographical blinders, passed down at coming-of-age with every generation. I do not want a systematic ignorance of importance in this world; a false view of size in relation to it. This constant sense of 'catch up' makes me want to 'throw up' change.

I want diversity; the non-plurality of rurality infects me - I feel dirty with the systematic fear and doubt of reconfiguration.

I want connection.

November 25, 2002 11:38 PM